"You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star." - Nietzsche
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
There it was, joy. But how could joy exist in this? How could there be the presence of joy in this horrible moment? I didn't really understand, in fact all those years I thought it was resilience that kept me afloat. Sure, there definitely was the presence of resilience and not giving up in hard times, but even more was this presence of joy that could illuminate even the darkest of times.
It's hard to forget what that moment felt like. Everything was completely black, the darkest black you could ever imagine. I don't know if you've ever seen a table that has been lacquered thousands upon thousands of times, but the blackness seems to be endless. This time in my life felt exactly like one of those tables and I didn't really understand how light and dark could both exist at the same time.
That light was always there, I just wasn't looking for it back then.
It is not going to be simple for me to return to this place. There are numerous things that I have buried deep so nobody could ever find them. Thing is, I knew they were there. They've been there the entire time. I have been so scared to let them bubble up that I've actually run from my past straight into the future and have completely forgotten about the present. That's no way to live life. That is not how my life will be lived from this time on.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
It's time to dive deep.
I'm bringing my lantern.
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
There it was, joy. But how could joy exist in this? How could there be the presence of joy in this horrible moment? I didn't really understand, in fact all those years I thought it was resilience that kept me afloat. Sure, there definitely was the presence of resilience and not giving up in hard times, but even more was this presence of joy that could illuminate even the darkest of times.
It's hard to forget what that moment felt like. Everything was completely black, the darkest black you could ever imagine. I don't know if you've ever seen a table that has been lacquered thousands upon thousands of times, but the blackness seems to be endless. This time in my life felt exactly like one of those tables and I didn't really understand how light and dark could both exist at the same time.
That light was always there, I just wasn't looking for it back then.
It is not going to be simple for me to return to this place. There are numerous things that I have buried deep so nobody could ever find them. Thing is, I knew they were there. They've been there the entire time. I have been so scared to let them bubble up that I've actually run from my past straight into the future and have completely forgotten about the present. That's no way to live life. That is not how my life will be lived from this time on.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
It's time to dive deep.
I'm bringing my lantern.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is a professional life coach at AYKME Life Coaching and writes daily articles on the journey of life at The Words Of Encouragement Dive into these Letting Go Quotes for more inspiration in letting go and healing the past.
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